God who provides
“Abraham called the name of that place Jehovah, as it is said to this day, ‘On the mountain of the Jehovah that will provide.'” -Genesis 22:14
When I was 19, two years into my journey with God, I was desperately searching for answers. I was overweight, I felt worthless, and even after my recommitment to God I still didn’t know what was wrong with me. I decided to go on a fast, not knowing exactly how long it would last. I knew I needed success in every area of my life. The fast lasted for 40 days. During this time God really challenged me, healed my heart, and strengthened my faith in Him.
My mom had been praying for a new car for me since my car was about to die, and near the end of its short life. About 20 days into my fast, a friend of my dad called and offered him a great deal on a new car, which was only a few years old. I came downstairs at breakfast time and my stepmom told me about the car. I thought they were trying to buy a car for him, so I said, “Are you guys going to buy it?” She said, “We were really thinking about a car for you!”
I was stunned. I never thought of getting something so good! But I was determined not to be optimistic. I had experienced so much despair that I did not know how to receive blessings from God. And I didn’t feel worthy. So, with reservations I went to see the car.
When we arrived the guy who owned it gave me the keys and told me to turn around with it. “Oh no,” I thought, “I will not be tied down…” I said to myself. I took it for a test drive with my dad in the front seat and it was amazing. I love music, and that stereo system was amazing! It also had a sunroof and original power windows and locks.
When we were almost back from our short drive my dad asked me to stop the car so we could talk about how we would arrange the money. He gave me an idea I hadn’t thought of before, and he was willing to work with me on it. I could not believe it. It seemed as if everything had happened in the blink of an eye.
That day, I went to the mountains to meet my mother, with tears streaming down my face, knowing that God had given me a special gift. I thought about the verse written in Matthew 7:11, “If you, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask Him!” I knew God had provided me with a car.
Do you know God as the God who provides? If you need something from him, move forward with confidence. Often this step of faith shows God that we trust Him, and He may entrust us with more in return.
